"I Am Always Following"

I am always following You
but sometimes I forget

as I manage, again, to
manufacture a golden image

that I place in front of my eyes
and I think that is what I follow.

This, of course, is terrifying,
to follow this lifeless lump of gold.

So I think the only way
is to figure out how to lead

myself to safety, thinking
I have been abandoned.

What sure relief to see the idols
melt gently away and to see

Your shining, smiling face
just up ahead beckoning

in such love that I am
instantly restored to grace

and surefootedness following
the truth of who I am.

"I Would Not Lead"

I cannot repair my ego
with my tool kit of time and space

or with questions, rules
and understanding.

My ego can but be forgiven
for the simple fact of

not being real or true in any way.
For this I now know

I merely follow One Who Knows
the way, for I cannot lead.

It isn't that I should not lead,
but that I cannot lead.

Unreality cannot in any way
lead reality.

What is false cannot in any
way lead the truth.

The blind cannot lead
the One Who Sees All.

Death cannot lead life
nor hate love.

Therefore, today, and
tomorrow and then again and again.

I will merely choose to follow
for I would not lead.

"I Fell"

I

fell

in

love

then

I

got

up

"Yet"

You sound different
deeper yet hollow

transcendent but
not present

willing yet not knowing
what to will

I know not your course
but I know my own

Let us steer our night boats
across the ocean of mind

until we reach the
shores of everlasting peace

and right now
in spite of the galaxy

of feelings at the fingertips
of my finite heart

I feel at peace with not
remembering everything

yet

"Keep My Happiness Safe"

You agreed to keep my happiness safe
while I looked elsewhere

I counted on you to tend to
and encourage and delight

in my happiness even though
I sought for what was not.

Now that you have returned
my happiness to me

I don't quite remember
what to do with it.

Being happy just seems
too simple.

"Looking For Love"

Christ asks that He may use my eyes today
I give him my sleep eyes

in hopes that I will wake up myself
as the Holy Spirit looks through me.

Right now my eyes are firmly
attached to my tired Monday morning body.

It is a funny thing that being
awake in Christ is much more

believable after getting a good night's sleep.
I keep thinking if I could

just sleep 8 hours a night
I would feel alive, refreshed, happy even.

But what if the key to feeling rested
was to let the Holy Spirit look through me?

Wouldn't the radiating love
and flow of natural forgiveness

plump my cells, strengthen
my heart and smooth my wrinkles

more that 8 perfect hours of sleep?
How do I let the Holy spirit look

and not get in the way?
I am willing to find out.

Holy Spirit I am willing to be just
as I am and quietly let

you peer through my eyes
that I might fall into

salvation as easily as I
could fall in love.

"A Hero's Welcome"

I want a hero's welcome
when I am home

not a party for the
prodigal son who

returns penniless
willing to be a servant.

I want the journey
of a moment to be

considered brilliant,
wonderful, courageous even.

I am a hero
for I am God's Son.

Love bid me adieu
and welcome back.